Quick updateĀ 

Triathlon training: SWIM DAY ONE 

30 minutes working on technique and form. Just trying to get the meters in tonight. 
I usually post after the workout but tonight is different. I wanted to document my nerves and my anxiety because today is my first day back in the pool in a few weeks and I’m feeling terrified! I keep telling myself just a light easy swim but my heart is pounding out of my chest, palms sweating, and my mind is telling me to go home and eat dinner and screw it. I keep rationalizing how much I love swimming and training… But I think everyone can agree there is a beginning period the first week or two where it takes every ounce of strength to convince your mind you want to drive to the pool and jump in. Once your in a routine you look forward to it and you can enjoy it, but dammit I’m not there yet because I got lazy. 

Well here goes nothing, I’m summoning my inner rekkršŸ˜‰




Hello all! 
I am back after a few week hiatus… And I am so glad to be posting this. 1) My wonderful doggy is healed up and his nail is growing back 2) I am planning big things! 

I have been slacking hardcore on anything to do with exercise. After a surprisingly bad results month at work I was a little demoralized and exhausted. I know my life is better with a routine but my mind refuses and pretty much rejectes the idea of scheduling. I think this stems from a strong desire to live free of the restrictions that a schedule brings. I love to be spontaneous and would have no problem driving anywhere at any moment on a crazy trip. However now that I am older and I have responsibilities I am finding  having structure is crucial in happiness. Now I have by no means mastered this… I still end up dead tired after a day of work and a workout forgetting to eat dinner. So how can we especially those like me (a rebel at heart), submit to a schedule and structure that leaves us time to spend with the ones we love and still accomplish all the things we need to get done throughout the week, oh yeah and find that time to train! 

So honestly I feel like I’m back at square one. Consistency is really significant in maintaining that feel good feeling when you are training regularly. I want to identify my hurdles, the things that hold me back, so when I run into them I can gage what I need to do to jump over them in time. 

  • Work
  • Eating
  • Sleep
  • Relationships 

Work is the biggest hurdle for my I work a 70+ hour work week and it’s physically and mentally taxing work. This is the main reason why I need a schedule. I’ve never had this kind of commitment before, I waitressed for ten years and had a ton of retail/odd jobs when I was in college; I am used to setting my own hours and tailoring them to my other priorities. Now that my career is such a large part of my day I have to find a way to balance it with my other three hurdles. How do I work, eat enough, sleep enough, and still have time to see my loved ones? 

Eating… Always a challenge for me usually I don’t eat all day and then binge eat at night. I have tried everythingggggg! The one thing that helped me is the 24 day challenge with advocare, it really regulated my body and eating habits. I plan to start another challenge the same time I start training. It will consist of vegetarian shakes, mostly carbs like rice and tortillas, and a lot lot lot of veggies and fruits! Hopefully I can get a eating routine down again I think this is absolutely key in regulating a persons mood. 

Sleep… I am always tired. I want to try and meditate for a week before bed to see if this helps a deeper sleep. I also need 6 hours of sleep a night so I can have some REM hours. In order to make this work I have to eat at a reasonable time! The goal for this is also to get up earlier so I have more time in the morning. Currently I literally have it timed to the minute of how long it takes to roll out of bed make a cup of coffee dress and run out the door! 

Relationships… The most important hurdle that is always the hardest to jump over. We often don’t make it a priority because we’re so busy with our careers, like when is the last time I had a date night with my love, I can’t even remember! Other people may have the opposite problem, FOMO people. Fear of missing out, those of us who need to be at every event and be out every night so we don’t miss anything (ps I used to be a spontaneous FOMO). Either way if your at either end of the spectrum you feel like I do that there is no balance in you life. It’s hard to prioritize it takes a certain amount of discipline and introspection to be able to define importance of different aspects of your life. I am hoping with a routine I will be able to define importance of these four hurdles and balance them a little more, leaving plenty of time for my passion: training for my events! 

So basically I am starting my training program next week, along with my advocare 24 day challenge to help regulate my eating, as well as my meditation experiment before bed. I will be chronically blogging how this transition unfolds. I have attempted scheduling numerous times in be past, and it never seems to work because I lose my planner or get distracted so this will be a really strict attempt to see if it makes a difference in my overall mood and training level. 

I can’t wait to post the schedule for you guys!!!! 

It’s good to be back 


Field Guide to Ultra Running

Hal Koener captured my heart last night in this dandy little novel. Ultra-running will always be my first love, and Hal really gets into the nitty gritty of some need to know stuff. Endurance sports are all about mental capacity and some training of course. Reading this sparked that fire in me to get the hell into training mode and do something great. 

I love the part about goal setting. I am a huge believer in goal setting, mainly because I hold myself strictly accountable for those goals I actually lay out. And I am a severely loose cannon if I aimlessly go about my day or week. Once something is in my head it stays there, and Hal through all these tiny dreams that will eventually turn into solid ironed out goals. My first dream that is formulating is another trail marathon that would give me a goal and a long distance run which would set me up for my second dream a ultra run 50k and a 50 miler! Along with my diverse training I want to fit an iron man in there šŸ˜

Ok I know I go crazy with a little motivation, it turns into a wildfire of excitement and dreaming. So I set some training in place and I’m trying to rigourously stay with it as closely as possible.

Week One 

Day One -Monday morning 5am 

2.6 mile stationary bike

800 yard swim .40 mile 

My new cap from #lovethepain šŸ™‚ 

I’m lucky I had this on today, because otherwise I don’t think I would have made it. I just saying if I complete this swim I’ll take a sweet picture with my cap. Man, I literally thought for every breath. I still don’t know why my swim workout was so rough but I’m hoping next time in the pool I slide through 800 yards. 


Find your inner “rekkr”
What motivates you guys during those rough workouts? Those long miles? 


Sorry for the absence I had quite the traumatic week. This little nut decided he was a mountain climber and attemped to climb over the baby gate that blocks the bay windows in my house. I luckily was coming home early to let him out and go back to work when I walked in I was horrified. 

I knew something was really wrong because he was acting lethargic, that’s when I saw his bloody foot. At first I thought it must be a little cut, so I put on his harness and leash and headed out. That’s when his paw stared perfusly bleeding. I went in to panic mode I went into the living room where we keep him and there was blood everywhere. I grabbed a towel wrapped him up and rushed to the animal hospital. 

When the nurses looked at him, their faces said it all as the ran to get the doctor. She delivered the news that he had ripped his claw clean out I was devastated. My poor little guy had really done a number on himself. They bandaged him up and gave me some pain meds and antibiotics for him. 

Unfortunately I missed a couple days of training helping him heal. The one day I attempted to leave him his anxiety was almost at panic attack level. 

Today he is playing and running and happy. He still limps a little but he is much better spirits. His resilience makes me believe even stronger in the bodies ability to heal, even traumatic injuries. I plan to get back into my workout game very soon. 
If you are skirmish don’t look below its where I found his little claw. If anyone has this gate in there house with a dog get rid of it!!!!


Over achieverĀ 

This is me and my buddy this morning. The last thing I wanted to do was leave the house and go to the gym. Like most days this little one tugs at my heart strings and makes it near impossible to leave the house. Once I procrastinated for a good two hours I grabbed a advobar and a slam shot and headed out. 

The weather was gorgeous. The sun for the first time in months reached my face, it’s warmth made my mind travel. My thoughts settled into a scene on a day that was similar to today. My feet were pounding the asphalt steadily, there was a crisp salty breeze, and I was happy. I was running. I made a quick right and the impact was soft as I hit the sand in stride. I loved running on the beach, it was by far an instant escape for me. Someone beeped a car horn and I jumped back to reality. 

I made my way to the gym feeling further away from that memory and more into that feeling of dread. I lifted a little and I began to feel better. I threw on my cap and sauntered out to the pool. The day wasn’t flowing like it normally did, all the lanes were occupied and for the first time since attended this gym I had to wait to get in. Maybe it was the previous blissful running memory, the weather, or the waiting but when i finally got the chance to jump in I was anxiously estatic. 

I had a number in my head 7 up and backs  (aka 50yds=one lap). That would put me at 350 yards and then I would do another 7 that would put me right at my goal 700. As I started I felt at ease, the breathing was natural, and I could feel that I was progressively able to hold my breath longer. As I approached the first turn I became disoriented. I kept pushing and got back in rhythm. The swimming became methodical as I was hyper focused on my form. 7 laps, 1o laps, 12 laps and I was gasping a little. A new number popped into my mind all of a sudden 20, 20 laps. I had a new drive and I was slicing through the water. The last lap was fast and when I reached the wall I was exhausted. My lungs were on fire and my body was shaking. I had swam 1,000 yards a goal I had set for next month. I had accomplished it early and the best part was I had kept decent form the entire swim. 

^ exhausted right after the swim. 

What was the last goal that you set and crushed? I couldn’t remember the last time I was able to do something like this šŸ˜ guess I found my inner rekkr today!




1.the quality of mind or spirit that enables a person to face difficulty, danger, pain, etc., without fear; bravery.

I believe it’s possible to be courageous and still have fear. I think that fear defines courage, without it we may not be able to recognize this trait. Often times I’ve found myself holding back during workouts. It wasn’t because of difficulty of routine or my own ability but out of fear.

Tonight I stared fear down jumped in the pool and swam relentlessly. I had that lumming number (1760) in my mind as I was swimming. I had only swam consecutively for 50 yards and then I would break. I thought that if I was ever going to swim a mile 1760yards in a race I would need to seriously work on my endurance. After my first 200 yards I was gasping for air and falling out of form. I found some form of courage and pushed through feeling like I wouldn’t be able to breathe and just kept swimming šŸ˜‰šŸ 

I COULD NOT BELIEVE IT! I swam 350 yards consecutively. It was certainly reassuring, made me feel like I would be actually able to race. I know it’s a long way off but this is huge progress. 

So far writing down my workout really is holding me accountable and I’ve done both both scheduled workouts so far. I did do legs today as well before swimming. 



Suffering through this injury has tested my will, my commitment, and my hope. I have been on this journey for three years and it seems I am still so far from where I want to be. Last night I biked a fast 2 miles and pushed myself in weight training. My body reacted negatively and I felt like I was broken. This morning I am rejuvenated not because I feel better but because I’m tapping into that underdog. That will to overcome, that hope to win, that commitment to myself to be better.

My legs are weak, my right arm has really started losing degrees for range of motion, my calves are like jello. I know I need to stretch more and foam roll more and incorporate yoga more. My hips are so tight, same with my IT band. 

Does anyone have any go to stretches, yoga videos, or stability drips for hips?

700 yards

My puppy in all his cuteness could not stop me from getting off my bum and back to training. It was hard to leave him today for my hour long workout, but I mustered up all my strength to deflect everything that was pulling me back to comfy clothes and warm blankets.

Once out the door I could feel the adrenaline pumping and I knew it was going to be a great workout. I slammed down a slam pre workout and smiled as I snapped on my swimming cap. My pool is 25 yards long so I wanted to cover a lot of laps. I was thinking about working on my endurance so I wanted to make each lap be a consecutive 50 yards with a 45 second break in between. I was shocked that I would need to cover 1760 yards to swim one mile. It seemed impossible when I realized it and after my workout seems even more impossible. I shouldn’t say impossible, just hard, like really freaking hard. I mean I understand now that if I am really going to be a triathlete or even if I am going to run ultras again I need to have a whole new outlook. 

Training isn’t I’m just gonna jump in the pool and swim a couple laps, and I’m gonna bike a little 15 minute shindig. No, training needs to incorporate everything at a high level. I need to commit to the level of discipline I had before my injury. Yes I must go slow, but I must be consistent, unfaltering, and relentless. 

As I looked at that number 1760 a new spark was lit in me. I decided I would swim 700 yards. 300 more then I’ve ever done total in a workout. I absolutely crushed it. I kept my form for a majority of the workout and my tests between 50 yards were under a minute. 


Monday-cross train/yoga/arms

Tuesday-leg day! 750 swim

Wednesday- biking 45 minutes stretch like crazy 

Thursday-abs/back swim 800 yards 

Friday-arms/speed swim/speed bike

Saturday off 

Sunday-2 mike bike/950 swim 

Obviously I will have to listen to my body but I want to start setting a more concrete schedule. 

Getting back into action


Longest week and a half of my life! Back on the grind tomorrow morning! Light lifting full body. And a light/moderate swim workout. 

Starting a cleanse as well along with a new meal plan… This should contribute to my energy levels and impact my performance. 

So hopefully I didn’t lose to much off my time in the pool. I was really showing progress. Work is now back in order and I can relax and enjoy my routine again.

Seriously wish these bouts of crazy hours and crazy events didn’t coincide because I feel like this is essentially stating over šŸ˜¦ 

Any one take off a week or longer and feel like they took months off?!?


Well my job just got a hella lot crazier. My boss had a baby so I am acting manager and responsible for the entire operation for two weeks! The first two days have been just flying by and I’m barely holding on. With the staffing being limited I’m struggling to keep the great workout routine I had. Looks like balance for right now is out the window and my best bet is just to listen to my body and accomplish what I can. The last thing I want is to pull something or intensify the chronic pain. 

My job is very physical, I was cleaning a car today and really tweaked the injured disk. I felt it when it happened and I’ve been dying to go stretch and swim. Although as the night has worn on my body is really making me think otherwise. I think tonight requires an impromptu rest day with light stretching and yoga. 

Tomorrow will be a great rebound day and hopefully the rest will really pay off in my swim session.

Until tomorrow.