Over achieverĀ 

This is me and my buddy this morning. The last thing I wanted to do was leave the house and go to the gym. Like most days this little one tugs at my heart strings and makes it near impossible to leave the house. Once I procrastinated for a good two hours I grabbed a advobar and a slam shot and headed out. 

The weather was gorgeous. The sun for the first time in months reached my face, it’s warmth made my mind travel. My thoughts settled into a scene on a day that was similar to today. My feet were pounding the asphalt steadily, there was a crisp salty breeze, and I was happy. I was running. I made a quick right and the impact was soft as I hit the sand in stride. I loved running on the beach, it was by far an instant escape for me. Someone beeped a car horn and I jumped back to reality. 

I made my way to the gym feeling further away from that memory and more into that feeling of dread. I lifted a little and I began to feel better. I threw on my cap and sauntered out to the pool. The day wasn’t flowing like it normally did, all the lanes were occupied and for the first time since attended this gym I had to wait to get in. Maybe it was the previous blissful running memory, the weather, or the waiting but when i finally got the chance to jump in I was anxiously estatic. 

I had a number in my head 7 up and backs  (aka 50yds=one lap). That would put me at 350 yards and then I would do another 7 that would put me right at my goal 700. As I started I felt at ease, the breathing was natural, and I could feel that I was progressively able to hold my breath longer. As I approached the first turn I became disoriented. I kept pushing and got back in rhythm. The swimming became methodical as I was hyper focused on my form. 7 laps, 1o laps, 12 laps and I was gasping a little. A new number popped into my mind all of a sudden 20, 20 laps. I had a new drive and I was slicing through the water. The last lap was fast and when I reached the wall I was exhausted. My lungs were on fire and my body was shaking. I had swam 1,000 yards a goal I had set for next month. I had accomplished it early and the best part was I had kept decent form the entire swim. 

^ exhausted right after the swim. 

What was the last goal that you set and crushed? I couldn’t remember the last time I was able to do something like this šŸ˜ guess I found my inner rekkr today!





1.the quality of mind or spirit that enables a person to face difficulty, danger, pain, etc., without fear; bravery.

I believe it’s possible to be courageous and still have fear. I think that fear defines courage, without it we may not be able to recognize this trait. Often times I’ve found myself holding back during workouts. It wasn’t because of difficulty of routine or my own ability but out of fear.

Tonight I stared fear down jumped in the pool and swam relentlessly. I had that lumming number (1760) in my mind as I was swimming. I had only swam consecutively for 50 yards and then I would break. I thought that if I was ever going to swim a mile 1760yards in a race I would need to seriously work on my endurance. After my first 200 yards I was gasping for air and falling out of form. I found some form of courage and pushed through feeling like I wouldn’t be able to breathe and just kept swimming šŸ˜‰šŸ 

I COULD NOT BELIEVE IT! I swam 350 yards consecutively. It was certainly reassuring, made me feel like I would be actually able to race. I know it’s a long way off but this is huge progress. 

So far writing down my workout really is holding me accountable and I’ve done both both scheduled workouts so far. I did do legs today as well before swimming. 



Suffering through this injury has tested my will, my commitment, and my hope. I have been on this journey for three years and it seems I am still so far from where I want to be. Last night I biked a fast 2 miles and pushed myself in weight training. My body reacted negatively and I felt like I was broken. This morning I am rejuvenated not because I feel better but because I’m tapping into that underdog. That will to overcome, that hope to win, that commitment to myself to be better.

My legs are weak, my right arm has really started losing degrees for range of motion, my calves are like jello. I know I need to stretch more and foam roll more and incorporate yoga more. My hips are so tight, same with my IT band. 

Does anyone have any go to stretches, yoga videos, or stability drips for hips?

700 yards

My puppy in all his cuteness could not stop me from getting off my bum and back to training. It was hard to leave him today for my hour long workout, but I mustered up all my strength to deflect everything that was pulling me back to comfy clothes and warm blankets.

Once out the door I could feel the adrenaline pumping and I knew it was going to be a great workout. I slammed down a slam pre workout and smiled as I snapped on my swimming cap. My pool is 25 yards long so I wanted to cover a lot of laps. I was thinking about working on my endurance so I wanted to make each lap be a consecutive 50 yards with a 45 second break in between. I was shocked that I would need to cover 1760 yards to swim one mile. It seemed impossible when I realized it and after my workout seems even more impossible. I shouldn’t say impossible, just hard, like really freaking hard. I mean I understand now that if I am really going to be a triathlete or even if I am going to run ultras again I need to have a whole new outlook. 

Training isn’t I’m just gonna jump in the pool and swim a couple laps, and I’m gonna bike a little 15 minute shindig. No, training needs to incorporate everything at a high level. I need to commit to the level of discipline I had before my injury. Yes I must go slow, but I must be consistent, unfaltering, and relentless. 

As I looked at that number 1760 a new spark was lit in me. I decided I would swim 700 yards. 300 more then I’ve ever done total in a workout. I absolutely crushed it. I kept my form for a majority of the workout and my tests between 50 yards were under a minute. 


Monday-cross train/yoga/arms

Tuesday-leg day! 750 swim

Wednesday- biking 45 minutes stretch like crazy 

Thursday-abs/back swim 800 yards 

Friday-arms/speed swim/speed bike

Saturday off 

Sunday-2 mike bike/950 swim 

Obviously I will have to listen to my body but I want to start setting a more concrete schedule. 

Getting back into action


Longest week and a half of my life! Back on the grind tomorrow morning! Light lifting full body. And a light/moderate swim workout. 

Starting a cleanse as well along with a new meal plan… This should contribute to my energy levels and impact my performance. 

So hopefully I didn’t lose to much off my time in the pool. I was really showing progress. Work is now back in order and I can relax and enjoy my routine again.

Seriously wish these bouts of crazy hours and crazy events didn’t coincide because I feel like this is essentially stating over šŸ˜¦ 

Any one take off a week or longer and feel like they took months off?!?


Well my job just got a hella lot crazier. My boss had a baby so I am acting manager and responsible for the entire operation for two weeks! The first two days have been just flying by and I’m barely holding on. With the staffing being limited I’m struggling to keep the great workout routine I had. Looks like balance for right now is out the window and my best bet is just to listen to my body and accomplish what I can. The last thing I want is to pull something or intensify the chronic pain. 

My job is very physical, I was cleaning a car today and really tweaked the injured disk. I felt it when it happened and I’ve been dying to go stretch and swim. Although as the night has worn on my body is really making me think otherwise. I think tonight requires an impromptu rest day with light stretching and yoga. 

Tomorrow will be a great rebound day and hopefully the rest will really pay off in my swim session.

Until tomorrow.


Inner “warrior” rekkr

The body is resilient. I think that adaptation and compensation in the body are fascinating. I continue to learn as much as I can about the human body’s ability to cope, because my body is doing exactly that… Coping. 

I believe in the power of the body to rehabilitate. I am hopeful that with proper strengthening and stability exercises in addition with weight lifting and swimming I will be able to run again. I have struggled with coming to terms that I can’t perform any activity at the level I used to. For three years I fought the diagnosis, the pain, and the inevitable. I am still fighting all three things however I am beginning to really believe that my alternative plan can potentially be successful. 

Each day I call upon my inner rekkr. I will preserve. 
Mirror the rekkr within. 

First real workoutĀ 

I am so happy to write this post! I had an amazing workout! The first time I pushed myself since my recovery process statrted. Andddd I felt great! I really am growing to love swimming. Here’s a breakdown of the work out:

100m continuous pull

4 x 25 brisk pace (racing pace)

100m moderate

4 x 25 brisk

Cool down easy 100 

Today I plan to do the same work out and get through leg day! 

Middle of the week and feeling great!

Honestly it doesn’t feel that long, it feels like I just started. I can’t believe I have one more week left of my first month of recovery. I feel enthusiastic about this last week. 

I’ve looked up some actual swimming workouts and I’m going to start structuring my swims a little bit. I think that will help give me perspective. I am going to start writing down my workouts. I usually type them on my phone as I go but I think being able to cross stuff off a list always makes me feel more accomplished! My knees have been sore. Which they never have bothered me before I am going to foam roll my IT band deligently over the course of this next week. And do more yoga!

New short term goals:

Swim 400m 

Bike 30 minutes 

Planks 45s 

Remaining optimistic 


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